Monday, November 24, 2014

My Thought For Today: My Real Holiday Heartache Moment

My Heartache Moment
I've got a heart that's been broken
and seriously, I'm not joking. 
The loss I endured
has never been cured
and the heartache destroyed
my emotions.

Can I share my holiday heartache with you?  Although, I have been decorating and crafting a lot the last few weeks, preparing for Thanksgiving and Christmas, my heart is heavy as I begin to think of the loved ones in my family, that are no longer here.  It's amazing to me sometimes, how I can still laugh and smile.  The hole in my heart from losing my father a few years ago has never healed.  Everything that excites me about Christmas is because of my Dad.  He loved Christmas and his spirit was contagious!  When I was a little girl, my father and I would set the tree up and decorate it.  I would help him decorate the entire house.  My entire family loves Christmastime because of his spirit and the ritual he created for myself and my siblings.  Many times, my Mother jumped right in there too but it was my Dad that spearheaded the holiday decorating in our house.

This time of the year is tough for many of us because we all have our own stories to tell. What a wonderful season & time of the year until you realize you are experiencing a real, holiday heartache moment.  Somehow it just blurs all of the holiday beauty that surrounds us. Yes, my father was a champion to me.  A heavyweight that never stop fighting.  A friend like no other in my life.  I miss him dearly and my tears and feelings of him not being here with me, with us, with my mother, is as fresh today, as it was when he passed away, a few years ago.  I celebrate Christmas, remembering my Dad and when I start holiday decorating and doing things that he did and that we did together, my heart gets a little happy! 

I shared this post because it's "real life", for me, especially during this time of the year. I know from my experience that just because the holidays are here, doesn't mean everyone is happy.  So, I thought maybe someone might be feeling like me, sad a little bit, some days, during this holiday time. 

I know its not easy and when you feel sad in that moment, remember you are not alone.  God is there for each of us.  I believe that.  Know that there are many hearts out there that are aching and missing their loved ones too. We are never alone.  They are right here with us, forever in our hearts...

Have a blessed holiday!